Monday, October 24, 2011

Drowning, Not Waving.

Posted by MANDI at 8:21 PM
I'm struggling with the world at the moment. Nothing serious, and nothing to worry about. Just feeling like I'm always three steps behind where I need to be and that no matter how hard I try I can't quite get to where I need to be. I can usually deal with it- but then again I usually only feel like I'm one step behind. Maybe it's the new job. Maybe it's all the work going on around the house. Maybe I just need to work out how to fit in more sleep. Whatever it is, my head won't stop going over all the things I need to be doing and it's a little bit poisonous. It's hard to feel good about what you have achieved each day when your head is reminding you about all the stuff you havent' done. Yay I spoke to that person I've been chasing for two weeks, and organised that thing I've been working on, and finished that huge pile of paperwork that needed fixing but... I didn't pay this bill, or check that homework, or cook a very good dinner or get that load of washing hung out.

I am looking forward to five whole days off . I've had to swap days a bit this week to fit in staff meetings and school events which has made the juggling act I've been doing even more difficult but as a result of the swapping I end up with a five days 'weekend'. And I'm planning to put some of that time into some serious sleeping. And some more into a bout of serious de-cluttering and chucking out around the house. I figure those things should go some way to helping me find even ground. Even if it's just for a little while.

5 comments:

Donna said...

I understand. Hope you get on top of things soon. I got myself so worked up about returning to work last week that I have locked up my neck and shoulders from being tense! So over being sore.

anne@#22 said...

my poor mandi. here is some advice from mid-air (i'm currently flying to chicago) Try to find 15 minutes a day to really be in the present moment, no thinking about anything but that moment. take time each day to delight in your children. these two techniques will refresh you and put things into perspective. they may not help get all those chores done but will improve your mindset while doing them. xxx

Trish on October 25, 2011 at 7:54 AM said...

What anne@#22 said. And you could also try breathing deeply for five minutes when you get overwhelmed. Or even just two minutes. Baby steps.

Anonymous said...

All of what Anne and Trish said. Also know you are doing a great job as a mum, wife and daughter. Take a minute each night before you go to bed and think of one positive thing you did well during the day. It may only be something really small but it is something. Also remember you do only work part time and don't try and do a full weeks work in that time. It is not healthy for you. xx

MANDI on October 25, 2011 at 9:10 PM said...

Thanks girls. xx

 

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