Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Getting Ready To Say Goodbye

Posted by MANDI at 8:07 PM
Our beautiful Max spent some time at the vet's having some tests done during the last school holidays and neither Hubby nor I was particularly surprised when the results turned up some bad news. He was diagnosed with an aggressive form of cancer that spreads quickly and we were told he probably had about a month left. Two if we were lucky. Looking at him, no one doubted that he was getting old but this crazy dog who pranced like a hula dancer when he saw his dad after a three day absence? Who ate everything put in front of him and eyed the kids toast through the glass door to make sure they left their crusts for him? Who followed his family around the yard, lying right in the way of whatever chores they were doing?. There was no way he was that sick. No way at all.


We were told to take him home, love him lots and do our best to keep him comfortable with a drug regime that would help control the growth of the tumour on his neck and hold his old-man aches and pains at bay as winter approached. Our very lovely vet offered us lots of support as well as some advice and a common sense approach.

So we did as he suggested and all was fine for a good few weeks. The drugs kept the tumour small, Max was his usual silly self and, what we laughingly call his 'old man drugs' ie, cortisone, eased his aches and pains enough that he even ran, yes ran, down to the front gate to bark at the postman. That was a very proud moment - even the neighbours were excited. But... you knew there had to be a but coming. The last week or so has seen a very sharp decline as the drugs no longer seem to be working. His tumour has grown enormously, he's just about lost his voice and, while his appetite for food is undiminished, his appetite for life is slowly waning. And so, tomorrow we're heading back to the vet. I'm still in a land called denial and am desperately hoping that the vet will tell us he's fine, that he's got a while longer yet and that we should take him home again. But I'm pretty sure he won't. And my heart is breaking - for Hubby whose boy he is, for the kids who don't get what's happening, for Maxie himself who has been such a loving, loyal, wonderful part of our lives and for me who, despite not liking dogs, or wanting a dog, fell completely and utterly in love with him from the minute we met.

So we're getting ready to say goodbye to the beautiful boy who has been part of our family for more than 12 years. And I'm just not ready for that.

6 comments:

Jen said...

I am so sad for you all. Wishing you strength and joyful memories of the happy times.

Iris Flavia on May 26, 2010 at 12:16 PM said...

Very, very sorry to hear!
We lost our dog to the same nasty thing...
But, 12 years of a happy dog-life ain´t too bad after all. Doesn´t make it easier, I know...

Anonymous said...

And Max's Nan is reading this at work and has tears running down her face. He was afterall our first grandchild (granddog)and spent his first night as part of the family at our house with his mum and dad. What a special boy he is.

Chicken Willow on May 26, 2010 at 6:50 PM said...

So sorry to hear about Max. We had to say goodbye to my 14 year dog a while ago and it's not easy at all to make the final decision, it sucks really. I'm thinking of you and your family and hope you are all coping OK.

BUSH BABE on May 26, 2010 at 7:36 PM said...

Oh NO!!! I am suddenly (hideously) back to the day I woke up to the terrible news that my Cosmo hadn't made it through the night. So very sorry. Dogs (good dogs) are really something else, aren't they?
Hugs
BB

Anonymous said...

Oh Mandi, I too am reading this post with tears streaming down my face. I remember this gorgeous ball of fluff bounding into your lives all those years ago in Newman. My heart goes out to you, Glenn, Ben and Libby. Never easy to say goodbye to a much loved member of the family, least of all the loyal 4-legged ones. RIP Max. xox Kaz

 

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